used sexually 💜

about three months ago I met a guy, then we decided to see him because the feelings were going well between us the same day I saw him he started to sexually touch me and I felt very uncomfortable , about ten minutes later he said to me ''drop your pants'' given the tone of voice he used I did it afterwards I got on my bed and he took my virginity that day I lie remember I was both surprised and overwhelmed, lots of emotions were forming and at that time I still believed that we were a normal couple like the others until he asked me even 1-2 weeks after going to the cinema I accepted and went there and there he touched my private parts as it is said that it is relative that tenainent on his right, he then told me to go to the toilet and returned to the toilet he followed me and went into the toilet in girl and in the cabin he gives me sucks, he fingers me, makes these intimate parts suck, and all full of unimaginable things, the last time that an act happened was when he came to my friend's house just because he wanted to finger me, 3 weeks after I learned that he went to tell these friends that he was using me and that I was just throwing away his sex friends when I found out I was sad, I started to mutilate myself and I didn't know what to do with my life anymore because I wanted to lose my virginity on a despicable person, he even went to tell a friend that he had succeeded in making me easy and everything said that it was he who begged me to forgive him...