Angie,
If you’ve found a large stack of written neat letters and you’re reading this now, then I’m smiling. I’m really glad you’ve found all this hidden in my room.
I wonder how you’re coping with me gone? I hope you’re okay, and I hope my Mum and Dad are as well.
So before I left, I wrote about all the memories I can recall about us on these papers you‘ve just found. So you can remember them too.
I hope this will help you in some way, not only to remember me but to remember the times we spent together. Each page I have written for you is a memory from our childhood, our high school life, my feelings for you, the good times and the bad.
Angie, read one page everyday, don’t rush into it. And once you have read all these memories, I want you to burn each paper on the day of my 1st Anniversary. Burn them at the time of my passing. We’ll both see the memories written on paper dance visually in smoke as you set them alight. Don’t feel bad about it. These papers are just papers with words on them, don‘t depend on them. The real memories come from the mind.
So Angie, can you recall the earliest memory of us? If you can’t, I can. Read on.
From heaven, always watching you,
Sailor Boy.
"It's too much to remember everything and everyone, all pain and hurt is killing me day by day little by little.
I wish I could remove all the pain and move on in my life.
I wish I could find an eraser or Better a delete button, so that I could start from beginning, without any misery or pain."
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"Hey Eva, you know you can trust me, right? "
He asked me again cupping my cheeks, I can't let him continue this. It had to stop now or it would be too late. I can't risk everyone's life specially his. If hurting him means, him being alive then I would do it without thinking. Again and again.
"Eva are you even listening to me?"
Noah asked moving his face closer.
From this close I can even see the scar which he told me about, its just below the border line of his hair, it can be easily conceal but from this close its more real.
His eyes, they are magical. I would love to look at them all the time and never get tired of looking at in them.
No, I cannot do this to him, I can't be selfish, I have to do something this time.
"No" I answer and walked away from him.
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