Death makes someone go crazy. It made Darrian go crazy. It made him do stupid stuff. He was holding onto the unreal truth that Ethan was still alive and everything was fine. He didn't understand death and even now still doesn't. He can't accept that his best friend has passed. He refused to accept it. And he refused. and refused. Until finally he just opened his eyes and let go of everything he was holding on. He acknowledged the truth. Ethan is dead, He is in love with David. Resulting in the death of his youth. R.I.P. 2 My Youth