Missing the past

Vent thingy. I just really need to get this out because it's been making my heard swivel up in ways that just never go away. New wounds making me miss things I've never thought much about

(I post solely on Ao3 nowadays, it's just that that website is fanfic-specific. Wattpad is more miscellaneous. And also it's one of the only things I can come back to and pretend that nothing's changed. :,] )