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The journey of enlightenment (JOE) needs to be worked out - IN WRITING (says my guide).  

"Okay then, let's do this!!!", I finally say with fists raised to the sky.

So, what are you really in for, my dear reader?  Possibly a phrenetic mess.  This is not a story.  It is a story destroyer.  Be warned as it might affect your very perception of reality.  This is a part of yoga.  It is the inquiry aspect and meant to lead toward Full Awakening, Truth Realization, Self Realization aka, as some call it, Enlightenment. 

It will read differently in each chapter because this is like a personal diary of a process, however, it is also being written with you in mind.

Each "chapter" will be an entry, diary style, of me trying to work out what is True.  This is a process Jed McKenna (the inspiration of this endeavor) calls "autolysis".    This will be happening in real time and not with a bunch of editing.  I don't know what it will look like.  Maybe a reality show in words?  We shall see.  Wish me luck.All Rights Reserved

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From Vows to Forever ✓ by _navyblueee_

A Tale of Desi Romance and Arranged Marriage ✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* Blurb: She doesn't want to be swept off her feet, She doesn't want to fall in love with him, She is heartbroken, She tries her best to ignore him. But he says, "If she doesn't want to get swept, that doesn't mean I won't make her, right? I won't give up on her; she's been through something that has made her that way. And she has a lot of insecurities, which I am going to make go away by showering her with more love than anyone ever has. Isn't that what you taught me, mom and dad, to never give up? So that's why I won't give up until I have all her love to myself." ✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* Meet Nyesa and Ayaan, an Indian couple whose paths intertwine in an arranged marriage. While Nyesa is compelled into this union by her parents, Ayaan is granted the freedom to choose. When Ayaan first lays eyes on Nyesa, an enchanting beauty unlike any other, he finds himself instantly captivated. However, Nyesa has vowed never to fall in love with him. Haunted by her past, burdened by self-doubt, and struggling with daddy issues, she is convinced she can never truly love herself, let alone someone else. But Ayaan is determined to change her perception and heal her wounded heart. As they embark on their honeymoon, surrounded by breathtaking landscapes and exotic cultures, he makes it his mission to shower her with affection and show her the depths of her worth. As they share intimate moments and explore the depths of their souls, an unexpected love blossoms between them. Nyesa begins to let go of her reservations, and Ayaan's devotion gradually melts away the walls she has erected. Together, they embark on a transformative journey of love, self-acceptance, and empowerment. ✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* Rankings mentioned in the book.

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From Vows to Forever ✓ cover

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From Vows to Forever ✓

A Tale of Desi Romance and Arranged Marriage ✧･ﾟ: ✧･ﾟ: Blurb: She doesn't want to be swept off her feet, She doesn't want to fall in love with him, She is heartbroken, She tries her best to ignore him. But he says, "If she doesn't want to get swept, that doesn't mean I won't make her, right? I won't give up on her; she's been through something that has made her that way. And she has a lot of insecurities, which I am going to make go away by showering her with more love than anyone ever has. Isn't that what you taught me, mom and dad, to never give up? So that's why I won't give up until I have all her love to myself." ✧･ﾟ: ✧･ﾟ: Meet Nyesa and Ayaan, an Indian couple whose paths intertwine in an arranged marriage. While Nyesa is compelled into this union by her parents, Ayaan is granted the freedom to choose. When Ayaan first lays eyes on Nyesa, an enchanting beauty unlike any other, he finds himself instantly captivated. However, Nyesa has vowed never to fall in love with him. Haunted by her past, burdened by self-doubt, and struggling with daddy issues, she is convinced she can never truly love herself, let alone someone else. But Ayaan is determined to change her perception and heal her wounded heart. As they embark on their honeymoon, surrounded by breathtaking landscapes and exotic cultures, he makes it his mission to shower her with affection and show her the depths of her worth. As they share intimate moments and explore the depths of their souls, an unexpected love blossoms between them. Nyesa begins to let go of her reservations, and Ayaan's devotion gradually melts away the walls she has erected. Together, they embark on a transformative journey of love, self-acceptance, and empowerment. ✧･ﾟ: ✧･ﾟ: Rankings mentioned in the book.