My Sticky Notes Are All About You

I think there is no love story in any of the novels. They are just all kinds of sad, happy and sadistic stories.
I think we fell too fast, and the scattered rubble fell with us, like the stars in the sky fell like raindrops...

It's hard to explain, what kind of theory is this?
Am I very selfish?
Human nature is selfish.
Is it scary?
However, it is more than just being scary and harbouring selfishness.

"All suffering arises from desire"
Aaheli thought... she always thought that! She had desired to live, but now she felt the opposite desire inside her, as inseparable as her breath. She knew that she would suffer from it, but she couldn't even begin to imagine the magnitude of the suffering required to achieve greatness in the chaotic, violent world outside. All she wanted now was to die. She remembered the philosopher Yang Zhu's belief that death should be neither feared nor revered, and funeral ceremonies were of no worth to the deceased. Perhaps death was the only way to escape the suffering caused by desire.

And in the end , the desire was granted as a wish; maybe as a compensation.

(Author's note: There's no connection with reality but some of its feelings are real. Don't mistake it to be some personal incidents. It's completely imaginary.)