Don't think about it . Don't listen to them. This is all in my head . If I didn't think about it , it will go away. It has to. I don't know what's happening to me.My emotions. Noices around me. It's driving me insane. It won't stop. I can't make it stop. The voices in my head. The worst thing is i can't tell anyone about this or they will think I'm crazy. I'm all alone.I feel so trapped in my head .My body. It just make me want to scream.But i won't let anyone see me like this . This vulnerable. Even after everything that happened I still am Lydia freaking Martin and I refuse to let anyone see me undone. (This is an AU fanfiction of stydia. Set in the teenwolf universe. No one knows she is banshee yet . she is not aware of the supernatural world yet and set after season two) I do not own the characters or the TV show .