just a spot to take
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Last published Fri, Apr 3, 2026
I know I am heavily troubled. I have zero doubts about just how fucked I am. But I try. I try my hardest not to let it out. To keep it in. To compensate in some way, for the mess inside my head.
I just wish I could be understood the way I understand people. I wish I could understand myself.
Life is so odd, and nothing ever lasts. Not the pain, not the joy.
I wish I didn't have to drag this breath along too. I just want it to end, I want to finish the movie, finish the story. And finally rest. Let go of experiencing life with myself. Because I know a good part of me exists. And she doesn't deserve to get drowned inside this ugliness.
Oh, my name is Lyria, by the way.
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