Drown in the Midst

I'm a softhearted girl that feels emotion too much, or maybe nothing at all but sometimes i wonder how to balance it.
In fears, i hide the beauty within me... it's like i'm drowning in the midst. "Is it too much the world did to me to feel this way much emotions?" my never-ending curiosity.

Even small things can hurt me, "can you be gentle to me?" i whisper in the universe
while i'm drowning.
maybe, maybe i'm the problem in this midst of sorrows.
i can't even blame everyone, but me and i.