Drown in the Midst
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Last published чтв, июл. 11, 2024
I'm a softhearted girl that feels emotion too much, or maybe nothing at all but sometimes i wonder how to balance it.
In fears, i hide the beauty within me... it's like i'm drowning in the midst. "Is it too much the world did to me to feel this way much emotions?" my never-ending curiosity.
Even small things can hurt me, "can you be gentle to me?" i whisper in the universe
while i'm drowning.
maybe, maybe i'm the problem in this midst of sorrows.
i can't even blame everyone, but me and i.
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