Affection under Devotion

My soul is screaming, each second mocking my whole existence. I should have just died. I am the reason of this affliction.

How can I do such a despicable act? How can I be so shameless? How can I do this to the one who protected me like a brother, provided me a family after everyone left me? How can I crush his gratifying golden family?

He died because of me. Maya is completely of me. I have shattered the most two beautiful people of my life. One is not there with me while the other will despise me till her last breathe. Everyone hates me now.

How will I face Zayan? Will he ever forgive me? Never, he has taken the oath to tear me down till death rattles me.

Today was his marriage but his fiance has vanished in the air and I have signed on the death papers as his wife. I know very well he would have never married me, well how can anyone marry the one who is the reason of his brother's death, the reason of his beautiful family shattered into pieces.

I am just a witch for the Khan family, who destroy the place, the peoples, the surrounding with her evil eye. I am tired now, I can't take the loathe anymore, I will be more alive if the earth opens up and engulf my pathetic existence like I never existed. I destroyed the lovers, the loved ones and every single flower around me. I am exhausted but I can't share with anyone because no one is there for me.

I am very well aware the hell has opened its gate for me from the time Zayan Khan became my husband. He will break me till I am broken completely, but who will tell him that I have already become what he wanted to make me. The last three months, the worst months of my life. I know it very well the day he will find her the first thing he gonna do is kick me out of his life like a unwanted trash and I will not have any option rather than begging on the road.

But am I really at fault or am I a prey???