Jacklynne Napier, a teenager raised by a single mum, struggles to understand the recent feeling that something is missing-something she should know-especially when she starts having nightmares and experiences spontaneous, frightening events where she meets the notorious Spadille-the leader of a ruthless gang. With startling realisation, Jacklynne discovers that this thrill, excitement and adrenalin is what she was looking for. As she grows older, and tensions start to rise within the gang, she begins to wonder if this lifestyle is permanent. Her friends don't seem to think so, especially Aasim, the boy she grows a deeper connection with. But when all is said and done, is Jacklynne more similar to Spadille than she thought? And if so, what does that mean for her? What does that mean TO her?