Secretly free
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Last published Sun, Dec 8, 2024
My life has always been controled by all.My parents , my friends, boyfriend and i even have to behave as the ''laws of the soceity'' demands.Everybody thinks i'm just a toy they can control every time they want. Even the words coming from my mouth are given to me like a script to an actor. And those stupid table manners ''donot speak with the mouth full,don't forget to put the napkin on your legs, donot talk if you are not asked to..............''. I'm so tired of that .I die internally a little everyday i pass in this house. I want to live my own life, breath my own air, talk when i want to, eat what i want to , talk and eat at the same time .......... and that is just the top of my list. The most important , i want to find the love of my life not that man who i was forced to date because he is from a rich family.I want to find my Jack just like Rose. But all this will unfortunately stay a dream and that is the painful truth.
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