Sober

.... I never felt this thought, after all those years I've never seen you, I still miss the sober and the real you. I didn't intend to drag you to the pit hole that pulls me down. My mindset keeps getting a lot of illusions about all my failures and mistakes without even realizing it; it keeps me going and fighting for what is best and not worst. Oh, God find me help the way of loving and not hating, loving what I have to accept from the people I chose to love.