Consiousness

After experiencing psychological difficulties, I decided to write a story to express my thoughts and feelings.

"If I can't live my own life, then I'll take my own life. You can't stop me, no one will. I wanted a happy childhood, I wanted a NORMAL life, but you know what happened? I never got my fucking wish because of your hot-headed ass. I fucking hate you, mom."
"I rather end my own life than to help you. I don't understand you. I don't want to understand you. YOU are confusing mom, I never understood you correctly, I couldn't tell if you truly loved me, or you only loved me because you didn't want CPS called again. Bullshit. Don't talk to me ever again. Don't message me, send letters, nothing. Fuck off, and stay out of my life. I don't want to see you again, ever."