Story About Myself (Journal)

I want to know what's happened to me on 2019, that years was removed from my memories like it's been altered.

anything I said here it's pure from my head and I try to remember anything, if it's offense someone I'm really sorry.

also I'm not sure if my English are good or not, I'm sorry if it's weird to read, please correct the grammar if I do it wrong.

thanks for who ever out there to read this.
perhaps if some hitman or assassins read this can you please kill myself?

I'm scared to die but I'm more scared to see the world I know fall into pure corruption.