Surviving My Narcissistic Boyfriend
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Última publicación vie, dic 6, 2024
"The worst thing is loving a version of someone that never existed but was all a lie, because they weren't who they said they where,"
A person without an identity, someone who hides behind a mask. Absorbs the life , light and joy out of you.
Coming off as a saviour but is more of a devil or demon behind closed doors.
Having to face someone who is kind to everyone and charming , but with you they show there true awful selves and they showed you a mask before deciding that they got tired of acting.
Looking back despite it's hard to fight the urge to go to them. You realize there behavior would have gotten worser and resulted in physical abuse .
Being lucky to get away, everything feels like it's in my head but the mental break downs and body problems from trauma are evidence it happened.
Learning to find a healed version of yourself, which you worked so hard on but was destroyed and taken for themselves, and your left to pick up pieces.
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