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Not Anymore

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Reads 3,108
Votes 115
Parts 39
Time 3h 6m

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S-20 has only ever known one thing, Hydra, until one man came into his life and showed him that there was so much more. That man was his first friend. His older brother. But after one night, the two were ripped apart and S-20 cannot even remember his face, only the words and stories that he said. After years of pain and torture, S-20 was finally able to escape from Hydra.

***

Tony Stark once had a son. He once had a wife. He once had a heart. All of it was ripped away from him, one fateful night. His young boy stolen at the age of three. The only thing left of him being the wrinkled photographs of his mangled body. The smallest caskets are always the heaviest. And Tony's been drowning ever since. 

***

James Buchanan Barnes has never loved war. He didn't join the army during WWII because he was desperately wanted to. He didn't love being tortured and brainwashed into Hydra's elite ranks. No, James Buchanan Barnes hated war. And all that it had stole from him. After he fell from that fright car, he thought he could finally gave some peace in death. Even that was taken away. He spent decades with monsters that only saw him as less than. The only good thing there being a young, small mutant that he shared a cell with. Even that was taken away. Now he was free. There was no war; only peace. That wasn't the same for the battle raging through his mind.


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