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Not Anymore

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Parts 39
Time 3h 6m

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S-20 has only ever known one thing, Hydra, until one man came into his life and showed him that there was so much more. That man was his first friend. His older brother. But after one night, the two were ripped apart and S-20 cannot even remember his face, only the words and stories that he said. After years of pain and torture, S-20 was finally able to escape from Hydra.

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Tony Stark once had a son. He once had a wife. He once had a heart. All of it was ripped away from him, one fateful night. His young boy stolen at the age of three. The only thing left of him being the wrinkled photographs of his mangled body. The smallest caskets are always the heaviest. And Tony's been drowning ever since. 

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James Buchanan Barnes has never loved war. He didn't join the army during WWII because he was desperately wanted to. He didn't love being tortured and brainwashed into Hydra's elite ranks. No, James Buchanan Barnes hated war. And all that it had stole from him. After he fell from that fright car, he thought he could finally gave some peace in death. Even that was taken away. He spent decades with monsters that only saw him as less than. The only good thing there being a young, small mutant that he shared a cell with. Even that was taken away. Now he was free. There was no war; only peace. That wasn't the same for the battle raging through his mind.


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Haven't I given enough? Given enough. by more_enough

"Kid you don't have to do this." I spin my head around, all the Avengers are behind me. It's like a photo... a perfect photo. Their stances match perfectly with the view and the sky. The golden hour light spills over the rooftop like a toppled glass of orange juice. "Friday told me where you are, your heart-rate. Peter, we can help." "No." ~~~~~~~~~~~~~ The story without the happy ending. TW: Suicide attempt Suicide Self-Harm Depression Anxiety Self hate. Begin the story at what Peter believed was the end of his life, and end it at what actually was. Playlist - https://open.spotify.com/playlist/20XExUeeR3ibOk9JwznFvA?si=2vbFglf7Sw-sH-mM5IyNzg ☹︎☻︎ All characters belong to Marvel Studios, I don't own any characters.

The Winter Soldier by ElizaIsTheMonster

"He was the first person I ever fell for, he was also the first person who ever broke my heart." When Alaska reappears after the blip her aunt refuses to let her back into her childhood home. With nowhere else to go Sam lets Alaska stay with him until she decides what to do next. What Alaska doesn't know is that Sam also extends his hospitality to a certain Ex-assasin. When Alaska meets Bucky for the first time she is mesmerized. Not only by his looks but also by his kind and caring soul. Still battling the demons of his past, Bucky doesn't want anyone to get hurt anymore-especially not Alaska. But she has a way of wiggling herself through the cracks of the wall he has built around his heart and it is hard to stay away from her. This is a short little story I wrote this summer and its also the first story I have ever written...so please be nice to me lol. Anyways I hope you enjoy the story  Feel free to leave any comments or constructive criticism. Bucky and Sam arent my charakters and all rights belong to Marvel

Colder | Bucky Barnes x OC by svmanthak

TW: blood, mentions of depression, drinking, smoking, angst, physical pain, torture, mentions of suicidal thoughts. *** [edited & revised] *** Blood poured out of her mouth but she continued up refusing to give up right away. She locked her gaze with him. And something inside her snapped. A wave of lost memories passed through her eyes-memories of him. She saw the same expression in him. Somehow, he remembered her, too. "Кто вы?" Who are you? He asked struggling to get the words out. "Кто вы?" Who are you? She repeated his question. She saw a twirl of emotions in his eyes, but he remained still. ~~ A/N: please keep in mind that I don't speak Russian and I use DeepL for translation. If you find any errors please kindly let me know about them. ~~ This is my first ever Bucky/Winter Soldier story, so I hope this is good. Thank you in advance and I hope you enjoy reading this as much as I enjoyed writing it. Love you all, S.S.

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The Fluffy Adventures of Yelena and Bucky by Em1The2Crispy3

That night he pressed a paper into her hands and told her to run, to burn the paper, to never stray from its words, had an impression on her life that she'd never really talked about. But it affected everything. "You're gonna run like hell when you get to out onto the street. Don't stop. Don't ever stop," Was it still worth it, curled up on the cement floor? Yes. Knowing that what you're doing is good doesn't ensure that it'll ever be easy. Bucky learned that many years ago in his childhood, and over again in World War Two. So why was the world still trying to teach him that, after everything he'd been through? Pain, pain, pain, for every choice you try to make yourself. Being yourself causes the pain... that was what Hydra taught him. What Hydra wanted him to believe. And he wished he didn't have to believe it, but it was true. Of course she didn't want to lie to him. He was like hope in the darkness, even when he was part of the darkness. Every time he went through shit, he inspired her. That night when he'd pressed a paper into her hands and told her to run, to burn the paper, to never stray from its words, had had an impression on her life that she'd never really talked about. But it affected everything. Cover by @planetaryfire (thanks so much!)

Unloved - (Fem Reader X Bucky Barnes) by PapaIV_

Y/N Stark. You are the daughter of the famous Tony Stark. Born in 1990, by a twenty year old Tony Stark. You don't know who your mother is...she was just a one night stand who passed away giving birth to you. Your father didn't want you...At least that's what you thought. Growing up you didn't have the best relationship, he never put you first and liked to hook up with girls and Party instead of being a father. In 2006, at the age of sixteen you were kidnapped when you had run off after your dad skipped out on yet another important event in your life. Hydra had taken you and tortured you...tried to break you. You were given many different experimental serums and forced to fight. You eventually meet a mysterious man who goes by the name "The Winter Soldier". But you just call him Winter. Training was tough...but you survived it because of Winter. You grow to care about him...that is until Hydra took you away and threw you into Cryo. Waking up was a blur, but you were blindfolded and taken to a new facility where you earned a few special abilities. You found your father again...everything was strange. He had changed and was now dating his assistant. And he was part of something called the Avengers. This story follows your complicated relationship with your father and your story of metal health issues. And of course love. I WILL NOT OUT WARNINGS IN THE BEGINNING OF CHAPTERS! ⚠️Smut, Violence, Language.

Gray in the White and Black by Drunk_Breadstick

"I love you. I need you in my life. I need you in my life. You help me become a better man," he said, leaning back. "No Tony, you make yourself a better man. You are the best version of you," Pepper replied, her voice holding so much conviction. He could hear a certainty. "I let those kids down. I let Wanda down." "Life let those kids down. You have done everything you can to protect them, and that's the man you are That's what makes you great." Tony turned back to the monitor. He saw Peter as Wanda gave a small smile. Wanda returned the smile back, as she continued to eat her own food. He felt tears filled his eyes while he watched her. "They're the strong ones." "They are only strong because they have you. Use that strength." Tony closed his eyes. "How do you know how to make me feel better?" "I show you who you really are. You're a father Tony Stark. You're a hero. And you're going to help those kids become the best they can be because it's who you are." -- After all Wanda, Peter, Steve, and Tony have gone through, they can finally move on. But it won't be easy. TW: Talks about torture and non-con. Started: October 31, 2019 Completed: November 1, 2019 Part 3 (and final part) of The Light At the End of the Tunnel

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Joan has been with the Avengers for a little less than a year now. They had saved her from a Hydra base and has lived with them ever since. Just like Bucky, she was brainwashed and abused. No one knows her story, not even her. The only two people who know who she really is and what she is capable of are Natasha and Bucky. The three decided not to say anything and to keep her situation quiet. But that all changes when another one of Hydra's subject joins the avengers.

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