Not the First Time to be Second

What hurts the most aside from presumedly thought you're a priority, you're the first among else, but eventually realizing in the end that you aren't even included in the options? It's not the first time though... and I think that's the most painful truth.

I'd never been chosen... if I did, those were the times when they no longer have any choice. I wasn't even considered as an option. How pathetic. But then again, it is not my first time.