Never Not

While growing up, I was amazed and still am amazed of how different our lives can be as humans.

And In my case, I grew up being always misunderstood by others. Kesyo intimidating daw ako, strikta, may strong personality, at kung ano-ano pa that I end up being alone because no group of friends ang tumatagal sa'kin. But, I don't mind it at all since I live in a happy, and comfortable life together with my family, loving brothers, and cousins. Samahan ko na rin nang... I was really grateful sa pinahiram sakin ni Papa God na mga talento, and I was lucky, too, as I was surrounded by people who supported me. Yun nga lang, with all of this? I longed for more. I want to live my life, experience new things, meet new people, and step out of my comfort zone. To achieve this, I am more than willing to trade something.

And then, I met him. Yung puwang sa sarili ko, napunan niya. Magkaibang-magkaiba ang buhay namin and how we view the world. He's really beyond amazing! Habang patagal nang patagal, mas lalo akong nakukuntento sa buhay ko kasama siya. All of my doubt, worries, insecurities, self blame, at lahat-lahat na ay nawala na. I'm more contented. Pakiramdam ko, I have already lived my life at wala na akong mahihiling pa.

Pero ika nga, "Be careful what you pray for". This is a cycle of life. And to gain something, you must lose one thing you cherish.