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Truly Alive

shawnmichelle89

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Parts 27
Time 5h 32m

Reads 228
Votes 8
Parts 27
Time 5h 32m

shawnmichelle89

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In agony I deliver the children of faceless, infertile clients.  To them I am nothing more than a vessel, bearing the fruit they so wish to carry within themselves.  They love me for my ability, and they hate me for it.  This is why I am hidden away here in the Factory where they cannot see my rounded stomach, swollen with their life.

When the life inside me is gone, birthed into their eagerly-waiting arms, I will be left with nothing.  I will be impregnated again, and again, until my body is ruined and I am sent away.  I should question this system, this ritualistic rending of my heart, but I do not-in fact, I volunteered for this job.  And now, six babies later, I am afraid to leave.  

It is better to carry life, even temporarily, than to have never carried it at all.All Rights Reserved

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