Numb (Larry Stylinson A/U)

There was nothing else I could do.I couldn't cry anymore, I was just numb.It felt like my whole world fell apart the day that the accident happened. I couldn't do this anymore.The only thing that would actually make me feel something was cutting. I knew if he was still here he'd get mad at me for cutting and I felt really bad but I needed to feel something, I needed to feel the pain. I wish I could take back the last words I said to him, the words I regret so badly. I never meant them, never in a million years would I mean those last words I said to him....

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I feel like this is gonna be a bad one. I can't cry for some reason so that's why I'm writing this fic. Sorry.