Awake My Soul ( Cole Pendery )
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You pierced my soul... you made me skeptical about people and love. And I hate you. You turned me into this broken mess, and even if I won't see you again, your touch will be with me for years, or maybe for the rest of my life, who knows. You fucked up my confidence, and I remember every single word you said, I remember how you made me feel like a waste of space. And now the voice that puts me down inside it's not mine anymore, but your voice telling me again how I will never be enough for nothing. It's hard to trust people , that's why I built my walls very high. I once let Her get to me and she learned my deepest secrets . Then the people I called my second family killed my parents for money. I can't seem to understand...I started wearing a mask. The best way not to get your heary broken is to pretend you don't have one
May...somebody please come , heal and awake my soul..because I'm lost in this endlessly sadness.
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