Meet me in Oxford

Matthew Said, "Why are you being so obsessive with things, including me, if they are associated with your life? I understand that you have the abandonment issue and I can understand things from your perspective but it is getting out of hand now, especially with things that are related to me. If it keeps on being like that, I have no choice but to leave you, although I love you to death."

Winston affirmably spoke, "Matt. I know things are getting out of hands these days and I have no word as excuses. I am not in the position to say, "I'm working on it and I will be better next time." But truly, I am working to walk on the better path for you and your mental health since I don't want to watch the love of my live be in tear and truing you into the biggest lost for me by crushing your life and dreams while I am focusing so much on the gain for myself by getting you to myself. I also don't deserve to say to give me an another chance because I know damn well that I don't even deserve to be called my name by you, but please watch me while I work on myself for my sake to love you again to the fullest and best way possible while healing myself to be a reasonable person."
Winston paused to take a shaky breath while saving the courage to speak again.
"I just only have one request for you, at least. "Please don't ever be in love with someone". This is just the last wish of mine before I say goodbye for now. I know I cannot control you and your life but I know well enough for myself that I will be turned into pieces and dust if I ever see you falling in love with someone who is not me. So, please do wait for me as much as you can if you ever want to. You know as well as I do that I will soul myself, my body, my spirit, my touch, my soul, and my brain if someone asked me as a ransom from me to get you back to be my porcelain prince who I will worship and protect him at all cause for the rest of my life."