Cloud's Longing

"31 years, 31 yrs had passes ever since you left me,Wei Ying .....are you really not coming back?" he stared at his guqin with his bloody fingers stringing the strings of his guqin.
There was no pain felt by those slender fingers.
no pain at all.
he really hoped all his scars were physical if that will bring his loved one back.
if that will make him see the smiling face of his darling.
....if only that will make him hold his hand once.
......only if....
Love was something sweet and bitter yet he never expreinced of nothing but pain,nightmares,illusion and bitter yet seeing the face of the person in those nightmare made him remember that face and those eyes.
.....He was thankful to those nightmares for at least keeping that face in his mind.
Lan Wangji had felt him living in the world was ridiculous.
A'Yuan had grown up and doesn't need him anymore.
The sect never needed him as it had his brother, uncle,A'Yuan and Jingyi.
And his brother doesn't need him, his seclusion had long ended.
so What was the need of living? His Wei Ying must be very bored alone in the other side of the world.
That was when lan wangji found himself in 36 years ago when he was just a 16 years old.
before anything went wrong.
Before the war.
Before A'Yuan lost his biological family.
Before ..he di...left.
And when he just fall for that dazzling man who made his calm world chaotic with those feelings