All The Sinners Crawl: Joel x reader

**18+, dark topics covered, toxic relationships, graphic violence and smut throughout**

Pre Part 1: You never used to be this desperate. Never used to allow yourself to grovel at a man's feet for him just to give you the smallest morsels of warmth in return. Yet, you found yourself lapping up each and every crumb.

It was never supposed to even be him. It was Tommy that set his eyes on you on that godforsaken night at the bar- the night that turned to utter carnage.

Yet now, you would do just about anything to have his brother look at you with the same warmth and wanting.

You wanted to hate Joel Miller, wanted to feel nothing but disgust as you looked at him but you never could... and so in turn, you allowed him to ruin you over and over in every sense of the word.