Why Doesn't He Want Me?

This is a true story from psychotherapy about a woman who has been in love with the same man for 14 years.
For 14 years, she had been processing, building, and elaborating on this love story in her head. Too shy to approach him long ago, too proud, too traditional to approach a man as a woman.
She contacted me in a moment of despair when she realized she had rejected all opportunities and men in her life for 14 years, receiving practically nothing from him except occasional encounters and sporadic conversations.
This is the story from that session.