boyxboy
College art student Jamison Parker struggles with getting close to anyone after trauma crippled his ability to reach out and connect with others both physically and emotionally. More interested in nature than people, he keeps his head down and tries to get through each day without giving up entirely.
Classmate Elliot Astor is a trust funder that can't buy his way out of grief and secrets of his own. Spending his nights partying with his friends to forget, he drifts through days with little interest in chasing anything but the next distraction.
After a chance meeting, they find themselves drawn increasingly close together, pushing the boundaries of their heartache and histories, and fighting for a future neither dared to envision.
current word count: 254,760
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• trying to update once a month, if not sooner
• some chapters are broken into multiple parts for ease of reading, as some chapters are over 16K words
• I'm a very dialogue-heavy writer :)
• this is a genuine slow burn
***Read with caution***
This story includes mature content and themes such as explicit sexual content, suicide, self-harm, abuse, violence, trauma, drug use, mental illness, death, extreme homophobia, slurs, cursing, etc.
There is no SA, though
Stats:
#1 in anxietydisorder 10/22/25
#4 in bxbromance 07/03/25
#19 in loneliness 09/24/25
[boyxboy] Adrian Sanders has had a crush on Derek Peterson for three years in high school. They played on the same side of the field, locking up any receivers that tried to get receptions on them. Adrian is the only person that knows that Derek is gay, but Derek doesn't know that, until Adrian sees something that will change their relationship completely.
WARNING: There are massive spoilers for Teammates With Benefits. If you don't want a book full of smut, then this book can kind of be read as a standalone, but I would not recommend it. There will most likely be smut, but this is going to be a slow burn. Homophobia will be way more present than it was in Teammates With Benefits.
My updating schedule will be the exact same as it was for Teammates With Benefits. Every Monday and Friday at 7 AM PST/10 AM EST. This will be consistent throughout the entire book.
This book will probably be under constant editing, similar to Teammates With Benefits.
Again, the schedule of these football (American football) games will not be the same as it is in real life. In real life, college football ends in January, but in this book, games will go until May.
This is most likely not going to be the only sequel/spin off I write off of Teammates With Benefits. I'll see where all the characters are by the end of this book, decide if I want to or am at least motivated enough to write another book with these characters. I most likely will be.