"How close do you want me?" [boyxboy]
"I want to feel your skin against mine."
College art student Jamison Parker struggles with getting close to anyone after trauma crippled his ability to reach out and connect with others both physically and emotionally. More interested in nature than people, he keeps his head down and tries to get through each day without giving up entirely.
Classmate Elliot Astor is a trust funder that can't buy his way out of grief and secrets of his own. Spending his nights partying with his friends to forget, he drifts through days with little interest in chasing anything but the next distraction.
After a chance meeting, they find themselves drawn increasingly close together, pushing the boundaries of their heartache and histories, and fighting for a future neither dared to envision.
current word count: 209,473
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• trying to update once a month, if not sooner, but sometimes it will take longer
• some chapters are broken into multiple parts for ease of reading as some chapters are over 16K words
• I'm a very dialogue-heavy writer :)
• this is a genuine slow burn
***Read with caution***
This story includes mature 18+ content and themes such as explicit sexual content, suicide, self-harm, abuse, violence, trauma, drug use, mental illness, death, extreme homophobia, slurs, cursing, etc.
There is no SA though
Dawson has had it rough. Not as bad as some, worse than others. He lives in constant secret, heart ache and pain. After his parents died he under went a transformation, rendering him unrecognizable. After three years of pain, cutting, and one suicide attempt, he returns to his hometown. As Dawson hides his identity, it will become harder and harder to seal away the truth when faces from the past start revealing themselves, including his gorgeous ex best friend Alec. Only Dawson isn't the only one with secrets and when a lie reaches Dawson's ears, it will take all he has in him to protect the one thing he has left. Himself. Dealing with depression is hard, and Dawson will have to learn it's not something that can be handled alone. He'll have to open up his heart once more, even if it risks him getting hurt, if he wants to achieve happiness.
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This is a trigger warning, to anyone that has problems with self-harm I recommend you don't read this as there are some graphic scenes. Also, this is a boyxboy story, so if you don't like hot steamy action between two boys, this is not the story for you. If you don't like it you shouldn't even be reading this anyway and I will not tolerate hate. You do not choose your sexuality and no one else has the right to make someone feel bad about who they are.
Also, if any of you are having problems, or the story has triggered you, please inbox me. I love to hear from my readers.