Needing you
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"I don't give a fuck. I just want you. I've always wanted you."
Ash had a hard life. From his parents leaving him , his grandma being sick, he has to sell drugs with his brother just to make a living. He's never been taught how to love or trust, never had friends because he believed he didn't need them. He's never talked to other kids except to sell drugs. He believes they only use him for their own benefit. He hates meeting anybody new or letting them get too close. That's why him and Marilla get off on the wrong foot. He gets confused when he catches himself slowly letting his guard down for her. He see's how care free she is and he hates her. He hates how he likes her for it. He hates how she makes him feel like no girl ever has. But he knew they couldn't be together. She was too good for him, too innocent, too sweet. He didn't want to ruin that.
Marilla had a hard life. Some would say harder than ash's but she didn't like to compare or bring up her hard past. People see where she lives, her parents, her clothes, all her stuff and immediately think her life is perfect. It never was though. Her mom had left her and her dad for 5 years. The stress made her dad turn into a huge drug user and alcoholic. He would abuse her when she wouldn't give him her money for drugs or just simply hit her when he wanted to. The addiction got so bad he would start selling her body for money to get drugs . Her mom heard about it and went to get her. Marilla now lives with her mom and her boyfriend in the rich side of town. She's shy but she's known for her outburst and anger. But things aren't what they seem in the inside. Her mom abuses her. Mostly mentally but sometimes physically. Her mom makes her thinks she's incapable of love until she meets ash. He changed her perspective of herself and helps her through the hard times.
"I like you. I always have."
"No you don't. You can't. You're lying."
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