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"I don't give a fuck. I just want you. I've always wanted you."


Ash had a hard life. From his parents leaving him , his grandma being sick, he has to sell drugs with his brother just to make a living. He's never been taught how to love or trust, never had friends because he believed he didn't need them. He's never talked to other kids except to sell drugs. He believes they only use him for their own benefit. He hates meeting anybody new or letting them get too close.  That's why him and Marilla get off on the wrong foot. He gets confused when he catches himself slowly letting his guard down for her.  He see's how care free she is and he hates her. He hates how he likes her for it. He hates how she makes him feel like no girl ever has. But he knew they couldn't be together. She was too good for him, too innocent, too sweet. He didn't want to ruin that. 


Marilla had a hard life. Some would say harder than ash's but she didn't like to compare or bring up her hard past. People see where she lives, her parents, her clothes, all her stuff and immediately think her life is perfect. It never was though. Her mom had left her and her dad for 5 years. The stress made her dad turn into a huge drug user and alcoholic. He would abuse her when she wouldn't give him her money for drugs or just simply hit her when he wanted to. The addiction got so bad he would start selling her body for money to get drugs . Her mom heard about it and went to get her. Marilla now lives with her mom and her boyfriend in the rich side of town. She's shy but she's known for her outburst and anger. But things aren't what they seem in the inside. Her mom abuses her. Mostly mentally but sometimes physically. Her mom makes her thinks she's incapable of love until she meets ash. He changed her perspective of herself and helps her through the hard times. 


"I like you. I always have."

"No you don't. You can't. You're lying."All Rights Reserved

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PLANK'S CONSTANT|| ASHTRAY O'NEIL. by Poisonsdead

Plank's constant is a fundamental universal constant that defines the quantum nature of energy and relates the energy of a photon to its frequency, aka; how close adoms can get without colliding since adoms do not touch. Plank's constant is 6.62607004 She wishes she could get closer to him. 14 year old female Carmen Alino had a tough life. Her mother passed away when Carmen was only nine due to overdosing on drugs. She now lives with her drunken dad, who often hits her. Carmen is a sweet girl with separation anxiety, but she doesn't take shit from anybody she doesn't have to. So when she moves to East Highland and meets 15 year old Ashtray O'Neil and he gives her shit, will she take it? ~~~~~~~~~~~~ "What's on your fucking wrist, Carmen?" "Nothing!" "Did he do this to you?" "..." - 'Anyone but him.' 'Anyone but her.' ~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ⚠️ WARNING CONTAINS DRUG USE/ABUSE, ALCOHOL USE/ABUSE, CHILD ABUSE, MENTIONS OF SUICIDE, MEANTIONS OF SEXUAL ACTS, AND PROFANITY.⚠️ Idrk if imma go through with this story but imma try to. There's going to a alot of things that go along with the original story line but for the most part it's finna be my own shit bc ion want my ocs to be standing there like 🧍🏽‍♀️🧍🏼‍♀️🧍🏻‍♂️ also its based in the summer

Anomalies ✔ by whoscountinganyway

"I am the textbook definition of in love with you." *** Castor Rex: He's snarky, quiet and mysterious. A secret keeper. He doesn't like his life to be on display. People avoid him, even if they respect him. Jasper Red: He's polite, nice and helpful. A open book. He likes filling his life with other people and their love. People love him, they can't help it. Because of his quiet nature, snarky smirks and sarcastic words Castor has always had a hard time when it came to making friends -and keeping them. Something Jazz doesn't struggle with. With Jazz's protective nature, shyness and many friends he doesn't need someone else to fill a spot in his life -at least, that's what he thought. Then they met. And that empty part in Jazz's heart felt a little bit bigger because he started to realize Cas could fill it. Cas sees him as a grinning, happy dork he has no chance with. Jazz sees him as a adorable, grumpy jock that now, is his. Castor wants to get through the school year as quietly as possible but with how loud Jazz loves, neither of them know if it's possible, and to make matters worse they're roommates for the rest of the year. It's only a matter of time before they come together or fall apart. *** As a private person, someone who doesn't share myself with others, I can say that learning how to interact with others is difficult. It's like baking, almost, you have to mix the right ingredients together, and if you add the wrong ones things can taste hideous even if they look good. It's a lot like our words. But I've mastered how to tell someone just a little about myself but doing it in a way that makes the person in front of me think they know a lot. Jasper, somehow, sees through this every fucking time and it's absolutely infuriating. He's never satisfied with just a little of me, with my hidden truth, and it's the most annoying thing I've ever experienced. *** @STESLARA made the second POV in her book 'Jasper Red's Anomaly'

Molly -Ashtray O'Neil- by malachiphobic

"She hated life and everything that happened in it. She hated her sisters, her father, her mother, she hated everyone and also showed it. This deep aversion to the world had driven her into a dark loneliness that was difficult to break. But only a few people let her approach her and among these people was Ashtray. Amelia and Ashtray met for the first time in Fezco's shop, a shabby little shop on the outskirts of the city. It was a coincidence that they crossed each other, but immediately an unexpected connection arose between them. Both felt estranged from society, and in their mutual contempt for the world they found a soulmate. Their friendship grew quickly, and soon they were inseparable. One day Molly Hughes entered her life. Molly was determined to destroy the deep relationship between Amelia and Ashtray. She began to spin intrigues and sow discord in the hope of separating them. Amelié felt the growing pressure and threat that Molly posed, and her already blazed rage turned into a flame. One night the situation escalated. In a moment of blind anger and despair, Amelia stabbed the girl and drowned her in the lake. The reality of her actions hit her like a shock, but Ashtray, determined to protect her, immediately took action. Together they destroyed the evidence, they cleaned the crime weapon and tried to eliminate every trace of their crime. But the guilt weighed heavily on them. They could not escape the pressure and decided to go to the prom in the hope of finding comfort there and forgetting the burden of their deeds at least for one evening. What they didn't know was that the police were already on their trail. As soon as they had entered the dance floor, they were surrounded by police officers and arrested for murder" Rue Bennett began to tell the story of Amelia Howard and Ashtray O'Neil and their arrest. [MOLLY] euphoria | oc season two

𝗧𝗵𝗶𝘀 𝗮𝗶𝗻'𝘁 𝗻𝗼 𝗴𝗮𝗺𝗲 || Euphoria by ilySyre

Ｅｕｐｈｏｒｉａｘｍａｌｅｒｅａｄｅｒ (Ashtray x male oc) ❝ Why? ❞ I asked, genuinely curious. I hadn't exactly been keeping in touch, and the weight of that truth hung between us like thick smoke. ❝ Because I missed your ass. You don't call me, ❞ he replied. ━━ 𝐈𝐍 𝐖𝐇𝐈𝐂𝐇 Renee, a young boy with eyes full of untold stories, found his life forever changed when his mother tragically passed away. Left alone in a world he barely understood, fate intervened and brought him to the Benett family. This family, led by a resilient single black mother named Leslie, had its own struggles to bear. Leslie, already raising two daughters, Rue and Gia, courageously decided to adopt Renee despite their turbulent life. Rue, the elder daughter, battled a crippling drug addiction that cast a long shadow over their home. ☂︎ • 2022 • 𝐖𝐑𝐈𝐓𝐓𝐄𝐍 𝐁𝐘@ilySyre • 𝐄𝐃𝐈𝐓𝐄𝐃 𝐁𝐘 @ilySyre • 𝐂𝐎𝐕𝐄𝐑 𝐁𝐘 @ilySyre

Ignition by Amirahmarie99

Azaria has transformed over the summer. She is no longer that shy and timid girl but is now confident in her identity. She is 18, and it is senior year. She has goals of being accepted into her dream college, and she is determined that nothing will get in the way of her dreams. What will happen once she meets a boy named Ash and they have an undeniable attraction to one another. Will she let the connection burn her, or will she learn to dance in the flames? Ash is one of the wealthiest boys in school. It's senior year, and he just wants a fun, easy year before he goes on to college to prepare to help take over the family's enterprise with his older brother. What will happen when he finds himself attracted to a girl named Azaria whom he knows he shouldn't want. He is afraid he will burn her with his intensity. Will he keep his distance from her, or will he let the flames of the connection consume him? Award #2- secret feelings *Everything in this story is entirely fictional. Do not take everything literally. It is made by my imagination. Some experiences might be triggering with the mention of racism, body image issues, and mental health issues. If any of these topics trigger you, you may not want to read the story. It also contains some mature content (smut). It is all fictional characters, situations, and places. Thank you if you read this story at all. Also, comments are welcomed as long as they are friendly criticisms and comments. I'll try to update twice a week.*

My drug | Ashtray by 3milia457

This is a cute enemies to liver type book I hope you enjoy!!! 📖You are forced to share a room with ashtray but one thing you HATE each other ❤️⚠️⚠️Include: mention of drugs, smut (he is a fictional character I am not sexualising javon in anyway. This does not apply To javon only the character), mentions if self harm.

Venom's Alliance: Loyalty's Fracture by LunarisAryson

Kalia's POV : Freedom ain't real. It's just a pretty lie people tell themselves to sleep better at night. Me? I've never been free. Not when I was born into a life where people used me like a tool. Not when I thought I escaped, only to get dragged back in. And sure as hell not now, trapped in a marriage I never wanted with a man who loves me like an addiction-obsessive, toxic, suffocating. Easton swears I belong to him. Calls me his, like I'm a possession, not a person. But I was never meant to be owned. Not by him. Not by anyone. And yet... I'm craving the one person I can't have. The one man I shouldn't want. Jay Kim. My husband's best friend. The only person who looks at me like I'm more than a pawn in someone else's game. The only man who's ever made me feel safe. But love in this world? It don't come without consequences. And choosing Jay? That'd be the kind of mistake that gets people killed. Jay's POV: I never wanted this empire. It was my uncle's before me-a kingdom built on blood, corruption, and greed. But when he fell, I had two choices: take control or let worse men have it. So I took it. And now? I'm doing what he never could. I'm fixing the mess he left behind. Cleaning up the dirt while keeping the wolves from tearing it apart. But then she came back. Kalia Gomez. The only woman who's ever made me want something outside of this life. The one I can't have-because she belongs to someone else. Not just anyone, either. Easton. My friend. My brother in arms. I should walk away. Should forget about the way she looks at me when no one's watching. Should ignore the way my pulse fucking riots every time she's close. But it's too late for that. Because I might be trying to clean up this empire... But for Kalia? I'd burn it all down.

Maddy and Me by Tis_I_Persephone

"I really do love you. It didn't start in a good place, I admit, but these feelings I've grown for you are very much real!" said Maddy, crying. "And how am I supposed to know if that's true? This entire thing could just be in my head! Maybe you found out about it and you're using it against me because you still love that asshole!" she said as a tear finally escaped her eyelids. --- --- --- --- --- --- --- --- --- --- --- --- --- --- --- --- --- --- --- --- --- --- --- --- --- --- --- --- --- --- --- --- --- --- --- --- --- --- -- A fanfic about Maddy Perez from Euphoria and a female OC. Story starts from Season 1, episode 5 where Nate and Maddy meet up at a motel on Friday nights since he was expelled for the investigation. I didn't realize for a good while that the show is LITERALLY about high schoolers and how fucked up that actually is. So here I am making alterations in the Euphoria-verse (UA) and a chance for the characters to be kids. TW: Mentions of abuse, violence, mature language #01 under Alexa Demie - 22/06/23 #76 under Romance Fanfiction - 06/01/23 #03 under Jules Vaughn - 24/01/23 #04 under Maddy Perez - 08/05/23 #2 under Zendaya - 10/03/24 #18 under Euphoria - 07/03/23 #01 under Nate Jacobs - 13/03/23

Fake Tales by NotOriginal1997

"I don't know what kind of girl you think I am Greg" I mumbled. I was not the kind of girl who slept with guys on a whim. I wanted him, but not enough to abandon all reason. He took a step toward me, ignored my narrowed eyes and wrapped his arms around me. I wriggled and tried to pull away, but he only held me tighter. His face was impossibly close to me, expression serene to my fury. I could feel him already, pressing into my stomach. Fear shot through me, but the anticipation was equal. "I know exactly what kind of girl you are Maddy... that's the problem" He said simply. His lips crashed into mine, tasting every inch of me. I wanted more than anything to pull away, leave and never mention this again.... but I couldn't do it. The feel of him naked, warm and muscular against me rendered me speechless. I couldn't explain it, but our bodies seemed to fit together somehow and the anger I'd felt just a minute ago. That firey anger at him invading my privacy was gradually merging with the previous lust from last night. Now all I felt was an all consuming need for him to touch me. ....................................................................... Maddy Reynolds' life is a mess. Her best friend's brother Greg has just died and her two best friends Mel and Dom aren't speaking to each other. She has no one to talk to about her confusing feelings towards Greg or why Mel is so distant. Then at the funeral, she becomes friends with Tom Winter by pure chance and he seems to be the only one who understands her. And yet.... even he is keeping secrets from her. The sort of secrets that have the power to change everything. Maddy now has to decide to trust him or find out the truth on her own. Things would have been a whole lot simpler if she'd chosen the latter.

Addict In Black ✔ by whoscountinganyway

USER SERIES 1 Micah Rex: He's handsome, dangerous, reckless. An addict. When he walks into a room, people notice. People are scared of him, people don't look him in the eye. AJ Ferro: She's cute, nice respectful. A helper. When she walks in a room, people usually get flowers. People love her, people want to be her friend. Despite her cheery nature and soft words AJ has never had it easy when it came to addiction -or depression. Without his addiction, sadness and anger Micah doesn't know who he is -and he hates not knowing things. And, of all places, they meet at a rehab center. He looked at her and saw a peppy girl with no future. She looked at him and saw a troubled boy with a bad past. Micah wants to die, AJ wants him to live. It's only a matter of time before one of them breaks through or breaks the other. - I was 12 the first time I took a hit off a joint at a party, smoked a blunt by myself and bought a bong. I was 13 when I started drinking alcohol for fun. 14 the first time I took ecstasy at a college party I snuck into, the same age I lost my virginity. This was the first time I went to a mental institution because it's also the year I first tried to kill myself. 15 the first time I smoked meth, took a bump of cocaine, shot myself up with heroine. This was the first time I got sent to rehab, it didn't work and I came out worse. I was 16 when I tried to commit three times in the same year, the last time I got my heart to stop for 30 seconds. That year was also the first time I snorted Hydrocodone, getting me started in opiates, I experimented with Xanax and liked it. And I was a month from 17 when I got sober. - "Fuck you." I snap. "You already have." Micah bites out. "And I'm pretty fucking sure you liked it too, if your orgasms were anything to go by." - "I want-" Micah stopped, running his fingers through his hair. "Never mind what I want. What do you want?" His voice is quieter now, more gentle. "You."

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PLANK'S CONSTANT|| ASHTRAY O'NEIL. cover

Anomalies ✔ cover

Molly -Ashtray O'Neil- cover

𝗧𝗵𝗶𝘀 𝗮𝗶𝗻'𝘁 𝗻𝗼 𝗴𝗮𝗺𝗲 || Euphoria cover

My drug | Ashtray cover

Venom's Alliance: Loyalty's Fracture cover

Maddy and Me cover

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Addict In Black ✔ cover

PLANK'S CONSTANT|| ASHTRAY O'NEIL.

Plank's constant is a fundamental universal constant that defines the quantum nature of energy and relates the energy of a photon to its frequency, aka; how close adoms can get without colliding since adoms do not touch. Plank's constant is 6.62607004 She wishes she could get closer to him. 14 year old female Carmen Alino had a tough life. Her mother passed away when Carmen was only nine due to overdosing on drugs. She now lives with her drunken dad, who often hits her. Carmen is a sweet girl with separation anxiety, but she doesn't take shit from anybody she doesn't have to. So when she moves to East Highland and meets 15 year old Ashtray O'Neil and he gives her shit, will she take it? "What's on your fucking wrist, Carmen?" "Nothing!" "Did he do this to you?" "..." - 'Anyone but him.' 'Anyone but her.' ~ ⚠️ WARNING CONTAINS DRUG USE/ABUSE, ALCOHOL USE/ABUSE, CHILD ABUSE, MENTIONS OF SUICIDE, MEANTIONS OF SEXUAL ACTS, AND PROFANITY.⚠️ Idrk if imma go through with this story but imma try to. There's going to a alot of things that go along with the original story line but for the most part it's finna be my own shit bc ion want my ocs to be standing there like 🧍🏽‍♀️🧍🏼‍♀️🧍🏻‍♂️ also its based in the summer