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This Is Everything I Didn't Say [EN]
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I write stories about me, about people I meet, about those I wish I met and about the few I dream of. These are the secrets of my silence, in the form of lyricism and in the shape of verses.
The first poems you read might make you laugh (although I have revised them, I've kept their essence, sometimes childish, sometimes passionate, and occasionally moving), but I wanted my work to be as authentic as possible to my teenage years - I haven't revisited them in a long time... I wish to share with the world my ode to youth, to the discovery of literature, and to the power of words.
*TW: Some poems state or relate to potentially triggering themes, such as SH, su!c!d3, family v1ol3nc3... Feel free to skip if it makes you uncomfortable.
**Most of the poems are originally in English, but there will be a French translation soon. There are also poems originally written in French, translated in English in this poetry book.*
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