Why do I feel this way?
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MatureOngoing10h 53m
Last published Sun, Apr 19, 2026
Shivian... from the day Siobhan pretended to tell Vivian to move her car. Through the complicated start of feelings for each other and the ongoing abuse from Roger. To the painful journey of healing from trauma and addiction. Vivian's haunting past returns to destroy the life she worked hard to build. Will they get their forever or will the unexpected break them apart?
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