Will I Find My Way Out?

I'm from Italy, 23, and I've never felt better. I am no longer a parent; my father, my only grandpa, died when I was two years old, which, according to my mother, was extremely traumatic for me, but I won't say much since I don't remember. I felt like they didn't comprehend my circumstances and what I was doing. Even if they attempted to contact me, it was fruitless, partly because I don't believe they were guilty of the abuse I received........