This piece is a deeply personal narrative that explores complex family dynamics, emotional trauma, and the struggle for self-identity and independence. It conveys feelings of being misunderstood, neglected, and unfairly compared to siblings. The author reflects on painful childhood memories, sibling rivalry, emotional abuse, and a desire for validation, ultimately seeking solace outside the family. Themes of loneliness, depression, and suicidal thoughts are prevalent, alongside moments of strength found in friendships and self-reliance. It highlights the journey toward healing, self-acceptance, and spiritual reflection.