Close My Eyes [English version]

Seven times I found myself writing those letters. Seven times I closed my eyes to forget that I had done it.

When I close my eyes I don't feel sadness, anger, or pain. It's like a breather, a little pause before returning to reality.

How can a man's life be summed up in such a simple, everyday, even natural act?
When I close my eyes, no one is torturing me, I can't hear my mother crying, there are no incompetent children making my life impossible, I am not controlled like a puppet, I am not trapped between two sides, I have no debt to pay.

When I close my eyes I see Lily, I hear that story I loved as a child, I see a starry night in the forest, myself making potions, and lately, a beautiful young woman with brown curls.

Warnings:
• English is not my first language. I apologize for any possible errors.
• This fanfic is based on the Harry Potter universe, whose characters are the property of JK Rowling.
• Hermione Granger is of legal age and is considered an adult from chapter four (inclusive) onwards.