yours truly, miss wallflowers

i have always been like the back sheep, didn't ever really fit in with any group, or didn't really have a friend as such, I mean imagine in a class that has about 40 students I didn't have any friends, and for a while silence started haunting me, I was scared you can say, I felt lonely and I wanted to talk to others but had no one other than myself to talk to so I started talking to myself and I am not going to at first it was kind of weird cause I did physically talk to myself and people around me started making fun of me because of that habit so then I started talking to myself in my head, playing out conversations, started making up imaginary friends too at some point... and one of those imaginary friends suggested that maybe I should start writing my feelings down because I have always struggled to express my feelings and emotions or you can say that I was constipated when it came to emotions, well its not like I didn't feel, I felt a lot but couldn't express myself, so I took the advice of that imaginary friend and started writing, well it started with unsent letters to my then crush, then I started writing about anything and everything and soon it was the most random thoughts put together that became my personality, so here we are ranting