"There is so much guilt inside your heart"

To be the king of Ithaca, to be far away from home. To continuously suffer after each mistake.
To just want to see your baby boy who is now reaching the ages of adulthood as time passes by not being there. Wanting to be with your wife after all these years, yearning her voice, and touch.
Losing your men, best friends, brother in law. Killing an infant to save your family, fighting wars against enemies, gods and goddesses.
Can this all be changed with a simple action? Should you choose mercy on those..who may betray you?
Or is Ruthlessness mercy upon yourselves. I guess we must wait...Will your luck run out..?