Our minds are an enigma:
On this road we call life, we learn many things. Experiences, chosen by many, and yet lived uniquely through each of our own eyes. These experiences mold us subtly and steadily. Over time, we mature into the beings we are today. Whether they have been for good or for bad, these experiences are an undeniable part of us as we live and breathe. Those experiences, those past blessings, those past mistakes lead us to learn more about the world. We learn to interpret nature and the many physical experiences we have day by day, around others who are the protagonists of their own stories. We also learn, however, more about ourselves-our strengths, our weaknesses. Our mind slowly traverses the world in an attempt to learn more about it; such is the voyage of the mind into itself.
With this book, Scattered Dreams & Dragonflies, I attempt to delve deep into those tiny bits and fragments our mind recreates when we are at rest-our dreams. I believe our dreams are of high value, as the mind, when we are conscious, constantly restrains itself, adjusting to our maturity and moral compass. By this metric, we are then tied to the constraints of mundane existence; thus, our awareness keeps us tamed and under control. When we sleep, I believe our minds let loose, freeing all our tension, all our wants, all our undeniable truths, failures, and pains. Just like AI, it creates something out of everything we are. Everything we strive to hide from reality, everything we only wish could be possible, everything we feel is impossible-all of it has its space in our minds. As we sleep, those chains are lifted, and we become our most authentic selves.
♜ Shuntarō Chishiya x Fem Reader
♞ "Alice in Borderland" SEASON 2
♝ No Smut, Only Angst
"I had nothing left to lose, but now I do. I can't lose you, not again, not ever."
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Y/N Chinen has Dissociative Amnesia, which is memory loss caused by trauma or stress, resulting in the struggle of recalling personal information. She was diagnosed with this mental disorder when she was young after an unknown event that left her traumatized and forgetful. Y/N remembers nothing but fragments of her youth, including the people involved, but with psychotherapy, she doesn't tend to forget crucial things in the present.
But, that was before the world flipped upside down, where Y/N woke up in the hospital completely alone. Days go by living in this Borderland, never leaving the state of shock as she participates in immortal games. But, without her doctor giving her psychotherapy, she forgets fragments of things that happen the day before. To keep herself sane and safe, she writes in a journal to keep track of who she is now rather than who she was before, a participant in the Borderlands.
As days go by in the Borderlands, Y/N forgets how much time passes by before the face cards were introduced. This new stage introduces her to Shuntarō Chishiya, a man who seems like a stranger to her, but in reality was the same doctor who gave her psychotherapy.