From A Far, Genuinely

"Hey, Eug. Are you with Zemicke? Can I talk to him?"
"Xhi! Are you drunk? Yes, kasama ko siya but we're with Lara too"
Naramdaman ko ang kakaibang pakiramdam sa sikmura ko ng marinig ko ang pangalan niya.
"Ganon ba? Kahit saglit lang, Eug" I plead.
"Xhi, you know you can't. Tomorrow nalang. Yayayain ko siya lumabas ng kami lang para makatawag ka. I'm sorry, Xhi." And with that he ended the call.
I know, ayaw niya lang ng gulo. But I really need to talk to him.
I started voice recording.
"Then atleast let him listen to this" I started. Wala pa man tuluyang nagsisimula ay naramdaman ko na ang luha ko. "I love you so much, Zem. But I can't do this anymore. Hindi mo lang ako sa magulang mo tinatago ngayon." Before I even know it, I am already sobbing.

"Xheanele!" I heard someone shouted my name.

"Sa mundo mo na ako tinatago. I am so tired, Zem. I'm tired on living behind those closed doors. I'm tired of being like a shadow. Hindi ko din naman siguro to deserve diba??" I cried. Hindi ko alam kung maisesend ko din ba to.

"Xheanele, let's go. Tama na yan." I felt a pair of hands hold me. Gentle. Warm. I felt safe but somehow, it doesn't feel like his. It will never be.

"I want to be happy. Ng walang pumipigil. Ng hindi ako nanghihiram lang ng sandali" I continued bago dumilim ang paligid ko.

**

After Xheanele's first heartbreak, she tried to forget and moved forward but somehow after years she found herself drowning with his eyes again. But things are complicated and they couldn't be together like what they imagined.

"Green light na, usad na tayo"

Note: This is my first story. Please bear with me, will try my best! Happy reading, everyone.