The Life I Didn't Live

Following a traumatic divorce, the protagonist's world crumbles as his ex-wife transfers their children to another country. A place he cannot visit. Using them as pawns in a bizarre game of manipulation and silence. What follows is a terrifying plunge into darkness--a life in which one day blends into the next, strangling him under the weight of depression, loneliness, and unending remorse. This book is a chronological chronicle of his life following the divorce, charting his journey from rock bottom to the man he is now.

This book is a chronological account of his life after the divorce, tracing his path from rock bottom to the man he is today. Each chapter reveals the raw, unfiltered moments of survival as he battles his demons-fleeting escapes through rooftop parties, intoxicating women, and drugs providing only temporary relief. But beneath the numbness, a deeper battle brews: the fight to rise from the ashes of his own self-destruction.

At the heart of his journey lies an unwavering desire for redemption. He is torn between succumbing to the void and becoming the father he never had, the father his children deserve. Yet, to reclaim his connection with them, he must first confront the darkness within, facing the whispers that tell him he's never enough.

This is not just a story of survival-it's about rebuilding a life. The protagonist's fight is one of resilience, redemption, and the relentless pursuit of hope. As he pieces together what's left of his soul, will he rise to become the father he's destined to be? Or will his inner demons drag him back into the abyss?