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The Life I Didn't Live

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anxiety bukowski cynical darkhumor depression divorce drama familyproblems lifelessons lonelines longdistancerelationship loveandloss mentalhealth poem reallifeexperience regret resilience revenge sad youngadult

Following a traumatic divorce, the protagonist's world crumbles as his ex-wife transfers their children to another country. A place he cannot visit. Using them as pawns in a bizarre game of manipulation and silence. What follows is a terrifying plunge into darkness--a life in which one day blends into the next, strangling him under the weight of depression, loneliness, and unending remorse. This book is a chronological chronicle of his life following the divorce, charting his journey from rock bottom to the man he is now.

This book is a chronological account of his life after the divorce, tracing his path from rock bottom to the man he is today. Each chapter reveals the raw, unfiltered moments of survival as he battles his demons-fleeting escapes through rooftop parties, intoxicating women, and drugs providing only temporary relief. But beneath the numbness, a deeper battle brews: the fight to rise from the ashes of his own self-destruction.

At the heart of his journey lies an unwavering desire for redemption. He is torn between succumbing to the void and becoming the father he never had, the father his children deserve. Yet, to reclaim his connection with them, he must first confront the darkness within, facing the whispers that tell him he's never enough.

This is not just a story of survival-it's about rebuilding a life. The protagonist's fight is one of resilience, redemption, and the relentless pursuit of hope. As he pieces together what's left of his soul, will he rise to become the father he's destined to be? Or will his inner demons drag him back into the abyss?All Rights Reserved

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MELANCHOLY | Melancholy drips from my fingertips. SOON TO BE A PUBLISHED PAPERBACK. COMING 2025! This melancholy drips from my fingertips so slowly, you begin to forget I even exist. All of me, the hard parts of flesh you could never seem to love, drips down the drain. I am waiting for the day for your fingers to unscrew the pipes, dig through debris and mess, scrape your heart against the rust, just to find me, so we can go through it all over again. Here, in the pages I find myself, in the ink that writes against my flesh, I will whisper the sadness, the heartache, and the decaying for all of the unspoken. Perhaps under this layer of melancholy, the girl I once knew still exists.    First poetry collection in the series. Original poems based off real life experiences. #12 in poetry. Cover template made by @KaleidoGraphix on Canva. 𝑴𝒆𝒍𝒂𝒏𝒄𝒉𝒐𝒍𝒚 copyright © May Garner. 2017. All Rights Reserved.

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🎕 Cₒᵤₙₜᵣyₕᵤₘₐₙₛ ₓ ᵣₑₐdₑᵣ ONESHOTS by starsxpearl

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This book holds poems woven from dreams, a tapestry of fantasy and obsession, daring to explore the depths of my emotions beyond mere definition. ˚❀　.　˚　　✦　　✿　.　˚　. 　 ˚　✿.　˚　　❀ .　˚✦　. ✿ 　　˚　　 ❀　　*　˚　　❀　✦　˚ . For me every soul has a simple story, one that unfolds directly. But when it comes to poems, they transcend the ordinary. They are profound, open to interpretation, deciphered through the unique lens of your own perception. ⋆｡˚ ☁︎ ˚｡⋆｡˚☽˚｡⋆✩₊˚.⋆☾⋆⁺₊✧ Soo..shall we uncover the magic within these pages, together exploring the spectrum of emotions and the captivating landscapes of fantasy? Umm..I'll take it as yes (*≧∀≦*) N PLS DON'T MIND MY DESCRIPTION M REALLY NOT GOOD AT IT (￣▽￣) ◇Used Pictures are not mine ◇Source: pinterest ♡So picture CREDIT goes to the rightful Author*

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why does falling in love really hurt?? like, i just love! why does it make me so hurt. and then, i realized... love arrives like a storm tearing down walls i didn't know were there exposing the raw nerve endings of my heart it hurts because feeling is terrifying but the ache is also the proof that i am alive .....

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