Third Time's A Charm

I was transmigrated into the body of Renn Ordell, the start of a new life from a death i've now forgotten
It was the worst thing that ever happened to me
My taken memories, the fact I could never do anything, I couldn't improve, couldn't be better, couldn't fight back, couldn't do anything to improve Renn's hellish life
Instead Gemini my horrid system made me play along, and if I didn't punishment I'm now used to would come, along with the cold chill consuming my body as Gemini truly used me as a puppet
Never being able to escape a fate already decided
To reach to my few joys was nature, and the gusts of emotion of what is left of my past life, and what's left of Renn
All harder to reach each day
Yet today it seems Gemini gave me, well Renn their death.
Execution now on the horizon and for once Gemini is silent, everything is
So I think if just for a moment I could be free from this, whether it'd be to my first life or an eternal darkness I do not care
As I am free
Though I guess Gemini never would let me have that...
Now I'm back as Renn, back to the beginning
Though it isn't regression, and it surely isn't freedom

Thank you athena_evergarden for helping me with this story