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Lost Star

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LECTURAS 47
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"I've been wandering for too long. I started to find the pieces that I've lost since that time when I ran away. And I realized, I was lost. Now, I don't know the way back home."

I am a dark person but I let everyone see the brightest side of me. I always pretend to be okay even if I'm not. I drowned myself in my self-pity-story. I really want to drown my demons but I'm afraid that they know how to swim. I lost myself in a sea of self-expression.

I'm sick of hurting but I get used to love a certain kind of sadness. It consumed me and right now, I can't feel anything. I'm numb.

Can someone save me from these walls that I've built in the past three years? Can anyone resurrect the old self I killed long time ago?

I hate to admit it,

..but I'm secretly falling apart.Todos los derechos reservados

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