An Ode to Life and Death Poetry Collection

I don't know how to explain that at times I feel like dying and others I feel liberated. Liberation is recipe for freedom and when I write, for that few seconds, I get pretty close. I never understand my story, it's always told differently. I guess I just want to write it for myself instead. I've never felt like my story was one to be heard, maybe it isn't but they're stories of true evil vs true good. I have a good case of it and I don't want one of the sides to win. I know I talk about myself a lot but if you struggle, I'd love to hear your story too.