Our Souls Are The Same

"You made me feel safe." my voice came out hoarse and weak. It sounded strange to my ears. It sounded broken. " I thought that falling in love with you would be the best choice to make. It's almost like you had me in a trance of some sort," I felt him come closer to me but I continued. "I can't even begin to tell you just how truly you made me happy, Nathan ... when I was around you or thinking about you there are no words in the universe to describe how it felt or how you made me feel... how you still make me feel. I was just so happy with you. Nothing else mattered to me. Seeing you and talking to you was always enough."

Nathan sat beside me quietly. He didn't say anything and I was okay with that.

"I remember the first time I laid eyes on you on our first date. You were so beautiful. You had a halo around your body because of the moonlight. You were just so gorgeous that you took my breath away. You made me laugh so hard that night. You made me feel special and important."I paused for a moment to gather my thoughts. "I remember the smallest things from that night. How your touch felt when your hand brushed up against mine when you took my skates from me so you could put them on me. How you smelled, how your hair always fell on your forehead. How you smiled when I told you I had never ice skated in my life because it meant you could hold me..." a sob escaped my lips and I hated how much pain I felt in this moment. Why did I allow him to break me? My heart squeezed itself making me feel like I couldn't breathe. I put my hand where my heart is as if that would make it better. I hoped it would help anyway.

It didn't.