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A collection of my thoughts, experiences, worries, feelings and everything in between.

Most of my lore is between these pages

Come here if you want to yap and know about me <33

#1 in yapping 6/11/24
#69 in poetry 6/11/24
#90 in random thoughts 6/12/24All Rights Reserved

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Until her ( book 2) by lovexv33

Book 2 in the Until series! He had " moved on." But he knew it wouldn't be enough. He was falling apart slowly without her. After almost 4 years after her 'death'. Until he found out she was still, 𝐚𝐥𝐢𝐯𝐞.

Trapped in my own head by WildImaginations16

She is an outcast. She finds it easier to express what she feels in the form of writing. Whether it is poems, letters or long texts. These are poems that she writes trying to describe how it feels to live with certain mental health issues, in a world that disregards outcasts. So, these are on the darker side of the spectrum. Some poems might be distressing for some readers. I personally enjoy consuming dark content, it's kinda like a coping mechanism. I really hope none of you relate with any of these :) I'll be posting only poems here, I'll try to be as active as I can. The poems are not in any order. They are just the thoughts that pop up any time of the day. (8.11.2023) PS: Please check out 'safe space'. I need your help to make it a real safe space, readers! Ranking: #1 shortpoem #1 distressing #1 poetry (17.1.2024) #1 poem (24.1.2024)

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MELANCHOLY | Melancholy drips from my fingertips. SOON TO BE A PUBLISHED PAPERBACK. COMING 2025! This melancholy drips from my fingertips so slowly, you begin to forget I even exist. All of me, the hard parts of flesh you could never seem to love, drips down the drain. I am waiting for the day for your fingers to unscrew the pipes, dig through debris and mess, scrape your heart against the rust, just to find me, so we can go through it all over again. Here, in the pages I find myself, in the ink that writes against my flesh, I will whisper the sadness, the heartache, and the decaying for all of the unspoken. Perhaps under this layer of melancholy, the girl I once knew still exists.    First poetry collection in the series. Original poems based off real life experiences. #12 in poetry. Cover template made by @KaleidoGraphix on Canva. 𝑴𝒆𝒍𝒂𝒏𝒄𝒉𝒐𝒍𝒚 copyright © May Garner. 2017. All Rights Reserved.

Diosa del Infierno by bbluebirdblues

BOOK II of the "Kings and Queens" series. Suited for an audience 18 and older. Read at your own discretion. * * * "Vanessa," I breathed, taking a single step forward. Bad. Fucking. Idea. Without thought, Vanessa landed a low kick to the back of my knees and brought me to my knees. I quickly regained my balance but she was quicker, climbing my back and using all her strength to teeter me until I landed on my back and right on top of her. Right when I was about to ask if she was hurt, she flipped me over with ease, gripped my hair, and smashed my face into the ground. I groaned as a white-hot pain spiked through my forehead and nose. Vanessa had pinned my forearms to the center of my back with one hand, holding a dagger to my throat with the other. I should have seen that coming... But what shocked me were the first words she decided to speak after seeing me. "Who the fuck are you?"

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