Beautiful, Anxiety
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I hate you.
Myself.
Me.
Everything.
Meet Lielle Young, she's 17, female and weighs 101 pounds. But that only what everyone else sees her as. In reality Lielle is a different person all together. She's anorexic, has anxiety attacks, has depression, and is scared of death but wishes it would consume her. Yet she still cannot swallow a pill to end it all, or take blade and die alone. Nor can she jump off a bridge and drown.
Because she terrified of The End.
When Lielle decides to make an attempt she fails and ends up in Room 114 of Mont Rose hospital and meets someone she'd never expect to see.
How can I stay here?
How do I smile?
With every feeling stretched out for miles.
Meet Calum Star, his name literally means a star. Calum is the star Quarterback for J.L Crowe high school. He's popular and all the girls in a 30 mile radius want him. But all that information is on the outside. Calum's brother is in a coma after trying to commit suicide but failed. He is now a 'vegetable'. Calum feels like he's not worth what everyone thinks he is. He's depressed, suicidal, and only eats when necessary.
When Calum finds Lielle in his brothers hospital room while his brother is in the ICU, Calum and Lielle's lives are changed, for what could be called 'forever'
This story is all MINE! I don't care if you have a story and its names are the same as mine it just means that our minds think alike. I know this story sounds sad. Don't worry it'll make you cry (hopefully), Laugh (definitely) and smile (for sure). I know this book may not get many reads but I dedicate this book to my best friends.... Alayna, Karissa, Victoria, Alicia, and my enemy britt for making me feel like some of the stuff in the story. Hope you enjoy!
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