Shades of Our Marriage

𝓐𝓷 𝓪𝓻𝓻𝓪𝓷𝓰𝓮𝓭 𝓵𝓸𝓿𝓮 𝓼𝓽𝓸𝓻𝔂
𝘚𝘩𝘢𝘥𝘦𝘴 𝘰𝘧 𝘖𝘶𝘳 𝘔𝘢𝘳𝘳𝘪𝘢𝘨𝘦

"Then tell me why are you acting weird after what happened last night? Why do you look like you're avoiding me?", I threw the questions at him, looking directly into his eyes.

His demeanor shifted slightly from calm to frozen or maybe, tensed.

"I'm not avoiding you Geetanjali. And I'm not acting weird", he still replied calmly, after giving me a long silent stare.

"Forget what happened last night. Everything from the kisses to everything included or think that they were some kind of nightmare", he said in a tone full of mixed emotions, I couldn't perceive any. His eyes painted the stark contrast of tension and frustration, against the façade of calmness he was trying to give off. Even though he was standing tall, his behaviour spoke a different story.

But I felt shattered, after the way he, himself, got intimate and pushed me away the next morning.

What was I supposed to do? Understand his pain when I was drowning in my own agony? Or just believe his words and move on?

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