You can't blame anyone else, .... no one but yourself. You have to make your own choices and live every agonizing day with the consequences of those So, what can't you take? Decide which of the two options is harder, and do the other. That way, no matter how hard your choice turns out to be, at least you can find comfort in knowing you're avoiding something even worse. pero pano kung mas better nga yung choice na yon pero sa choice na yon hinding hindi ka magiging masaya? would you still choose it?