Finding my own way
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  • Parts 18
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Ongoing, First published Apr 25, 2015
Hey my name is Si'Mya and I live with my crack head mother and drug dealer dad. But things were never like this. I had an older brother named Jay. We were like that happy family you'll see in a magazine. I was 10 when I found out that my brother was in the game, no one knew but me. When I was 13 years old, my brother was gone. My mother cried all night that night and dad turned into a person I never seen before. He would beat my mother every day and if i tried to help her he would beat me too. When my teachers ask me what happen, I would look at it and say it was nothing.

                                                               
                                             But back to me. I'm 5'3, I'm black and barbadian(I'm from barbados), I have reddish-brown hair. I live in Brooklyn,New York and I live in the projects. People around her just shoot and ask questions later. The apartment itself looked like a hot ass mess. mice in all the rooms the bathroom looked like a pig pen, but that's what we can afford. I thought about what like would of been like if my brother never died. My thoughts were interrupted to my dad yelling at my mom, telling her to get on her knees. He slapped the shit out of her and pointed to his ''friend'', she shook her head no and he slapped her again. She looked at it and did what she did.

''NEXT TIME I TELL YOU TO DO SOMETHING YOU BETTER DO IT BITCH!" He said to her as she cried. I went back into my room and lied down on my bed and closing my eyes shut. I was going to take a nap when there was a knock at my door....... it was my mother. She looked sad and anger. She sat down on my bed and looked at me. She stared crying and said something I'll never forget 

''baby.... I need you to let you'r father have sex with you"







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He once told me no one knows the real him.I didn't think he meant it, and not in a good way. He is a straight A student, and everyone knows it, not to mention he is on the swim team. All that though isn't the real him, the real him hides deep within himself. ---------- "Can you please tell me what that was?" I nearly shout at him. All I get is silence. He keeps his back to me. "Please, I need some explanation." I beg. I stay still as he stops dead in his tracks. His body is tense and it's scarring me. He turns around slowly to face me with his hands at his sides. His eyes meet mine, but there is no spark of any emotion in them. They are cold and dark making me look away not being able to hold his deadly stare. I feel uneasy under his gaze, and i feel his eyes burning a hole in the side of my face. "No, I won't explain because it's not important." He says in a low, almost, growl. I flinch and look back into his eyes. I feel hurt by his words and I don't know why, but I know he sees it in my eyes. His faces flashes with regret but it's quickly covered up with his faces going back to it's hard cold look. I feel my heart stop and my face go pale. His look terrified me making me hold my breath. "Breath." He orders. I start to breathe again and just blink at him. "Now go." He orders me again. I flinch involuntarily at his tone and jump back slightly. "Please don't let me walk home alone." I beg in a quiet voice, looking down at my feet. The next thing I see are his black combat boots right in front of my shoes. I look up into his eyes and he looks down into mine confusion written all over his face. "How come you aren't running yet?" He questions searching my eyes. "I just can't walk home alone, please I'm scared." I hear him chuckle. "You aren't afraid of me? What can possibly be scarier than me?" He asks. "Well, I know you will keep me safe." "Why is that?" He questions raising an eyebrow at me. "You haven't hurt me." "Yet." He mutters, but I roll my eyes.