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My dad was hitting me again, and it hurt. Bad. But no matter how loud I scream, or how loud I yell, I knew nobody would care, They think its just disapline. I have never experienced a fatherly love, mom, well, she pretents like everything is okay. My dad said I was a mistake an accident, I wasn't supposed to exist. Mother stays away from him, This is a dream to her, a nightmare she can't escape. More like my nightmare.

17 year old Emma has been abused by her father since she was a little girl. She remembers a time when her father didn't drink. A time when he still loved. A time when he was a dad. Now, those memories are just fantasy from a storybook. She has forgotten how a good family looks like. Now, as the years passed, she keeps a journal kept hidden in her room, where she writes all her emotions. She has confirmed that she will never see a complete family. Never, until an 18 year old girl comes into the picture. A girl that shows her love. A love only shown in a family. 
Can Emma finally see the beauty in life and seek courage of her own? or will she forever hide and live in fear by her father?

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