Dark Phantasmagoria 1

I don't know... what I should do now. Should I end it all by jumping into the sea, leaving everything a hollow mystery, without meaning, without closure? Or should I stay silent... and wait for my fate to find me in their hands, while all of this remains an unsolved riddle?

God, what should I do? I'm just a schoolboy who can't even provide for myself. But You've numbed me to life. I no longer know where my steps should take me... what I should seek, chase, or fight for... other than to make happy those I loved who are now gone.

God, if one day You destined me to meet them-the ones responsible for all of this-after You show me their most wretched faces, You will find my hands stained with their vile, black blood.